First Guestie Post: The Trying to Conceive Journey
Posted on | August 16, 2010 | 1 Comment
BBJoys and I have “known” each other for several years, now. We met on thebump Boards (the same can be said for most of guest posts you’ll read this week). She and her husband dealt with the frustration and struggle of a long TTC journey, yet through it all, she kept hope and was an inspiration to everyone else experiencing a similar battle. Here is her story! Enjoy, and go check out her adorable blog, “Life with Baby N.” She’s got some great DIY projects and recommendations for new mom and newborn essentials.
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“Motherhood”
I’ve always known I wanted to be a mother. I would always surround myself with children whenever possible. I worked as a preschool teacher for a few years, and it was absolutely the best, most satisfying job I have ever had. Seeing those bright, smiling faces every day put me in the best mood. It didn’t even feel like work. Plus, I have five nieces and nephews whom I have watched grow up, and I have loved them from day one as if they were my own. Kids are my life, and I couldn’t imagine my life without my own.
Unfortunately, my journey with TTC did not go as smoothly as I would have hoped. I spent the first few months of TTC trying to keep my cool and not going overboard. But when things weren’t going as planned, I started using all the tools – charting, OPKs, fertility monitors, etc. But even then, things just weren’t happening. It was around cycle 20 or so that my husband and I decided it was time to see an RE.
It’s strange how things work themselves out, though. The very cycle (cycle 22) that we were going for our consultation, I found out I was pregnant. I mean, at that point we had pretty much given up on trying to get pregnant on our own, and had accepted the fact that we were going to need some help. We both started the testing process to check things out. And what happens? BFP. I was shocked, to say the least.
Fast forward one year, and here I am today with my precious Baby N, who is 4 months old already. I cannot believe the roller coaster we have been through to get to this point. From TTC for almost two years, to having been put on bed rest for pretty much the entire second half of my pregnancy (thanks to preterm labor), here we are today. I am a mother.
I never could have imagined what being a mother would be like. There are no words anyone could ever say that would even come close to the emotions and feelings that come with motherhood. To me, being a mother is absolutely the most selfless role a person could ever take on. Nothing in my life matters more than my little boy. If both him and I are hungry, my hunger no longer matters until he’s been fed. If I need to take a shower but N needs to be changed, my ratty hair can wait to be washed. If I am sleepy but N wants to get up to play, I somehow find the energy to get up and forget the tiredness. Being a mother means putting Baby N ahead of my own needs, because nothing else matters unless he is happy.
Am I complaining? Not a single bit. This mom thing is the most tiresome thing I have ever done, but really, it is the BEST. I wouldn’t give it up for anything.
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August 16th, 2010 @ 11:37 am
Love you BB! It is the most amazing experience, being a mom.