Posted on | January 5, 2012 | 5 Comments
Life is an adjustment. One big, constant, neverending adjustment. Just when I think I finally get it, things change, and I’m left scrambling to figure out our new schedule. Our new habits. Our new likes and dislikes and wishes and dreams and everything in between. I’m not complaining. Honestly. The constant change keeps me on my toes and keeps me interested in everything. There is something unreal and amazing about watching our two, little boys grow so immensely in such a short amount of time.
I’m going to be real with you. I no longer have two babies under the age of two. And for some weird reason I can’t explain, I thought that the day Sully turned two, things would be easier. I thought I would have things more under control. That I would figure out the perfect system for changing two diapers, for feeding two babies, for pumping and cooking and cleaning. But? I don’t. I still don’t have it down to a perfect system. But what I’ve learned is that…that’s okay. It’s okay that I don’t have things down to a science. My boys are still happy, fat, and sweet as pie.
Sully still says, “I wuv you, mommy.”
Arlo still stares at me all day and cries when I walk into the next room.
They both cry for me when they have a fever.
Sully wants a kiss from me when he bumps his head.
Arlo grabs my face and laughs because I make him happy.
So while it may matter to me that the floors are clean, the dishes are washed, and the clothes are folded, it doesn’t matter to them. And I’m learning that. Slowly. But I’m learning it, nonetheless. And lately, the boys are adjusting to each other so well. Sully says, “Beebab!” when he sees Arlo. He worries about Arlo when he cries. Arlo laughs at everything Sully does. To see them interact is amazing and so fulfilling.
I’ve had a hard time capturing life on my big girl camera lately because I’m running non-stop all day. So I’ve found my camera on my phone is a great way to get those little moments when I think, “Damn, I wish I had my camera.” Here are a few snapshots of our life over the past couple of weeks…
So, that is our life in a few brief snapshots. It may seem trivial, but it is beautiful to me.